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March 14th, 2004

Feet Washing

Posted by caesy_sann at 03:19 PM on March 14, 2004.

today, my feet was being washed by my senior pastor. and i have to say that this is trully the best church service i've ever attended since my christian walk. i am not discrediting the other services, but her (my senior pastor, Pastor Sandra Ee) actions were so anointed. and i believe that it must have been very hard for her to humble herself to was the whole church members' feet. if i was in her position, i could have quited than humiliating myself.... anyway, my church has been having an internal problem. the pastors and staffs were having a very big fight. i got to know this through my friend who has very close contact with the pastors in there. and honestly, that spirit of bitterness did affect the church. before the whole feet washing thingy, the air was so stale. the member's spirit was so blunt. and the crowd was actually smaller. i believe that when there is bitterness in the church admin.... it will bring that spirit down to the congregation... and i am so glad that Pastor Sandra grasped hold of that situation and turned it around. and when she said that she wans to wash our feet (that was her first time doing it), immediately i started crying. i guess i was like Peter when Jesus said that He wanted to wash Peter's feet but Peter said no.... coz i don't feel that i am that worthy. who am i to her that she has to go through such humiliation to wash my feet? she is trully my sheperd. it's trully not easy to be at her position... protecting us from the 'wolves'. her actions only was a powerful sermon. and the spirit within the church was immediately changed. so much warmth and i felt like home again..... it was very powerful.....

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March 4th, 2004

i drove to KL

Posted by caesy_sann at 01:25 PM on March 4, 2004.

our company is actually doing a truck painting (advertisement)for one of our clients. so our painter is from petaling jaya, someone near my office and our client is from kuala lumpur. yesterday afternoon, way befoer the accident, the person who was suppose to send the truck was off. and my male boss asked me to fetch him to the painter and he will send the truck to KL to the client and i tailed behind him and fetch him back from there.... tat was the BIGGEST BIGGEST project for me. driving to KL!!!!!!! iit was scary... too many cars, too many nasty drivers and my boss drove like one of them.. thank goodness that truck had a very distinct brigt blue color. it was easy for me to follow. and i can track him from miles away. anyhow, whenever he was in the car with me, i allowed him to drive.... i dun think he can stand my driving. besides, he drives reallll fast. i am exactly the opposite... gosh and i have to service this client whos in kl in future... cham!! but thank God that i came home safely... *phew**

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1st car accident

Posted by caesy_sann at 01:14 PM on March 4, 2004.

i hit on someone's car while i was trying to park yesterday. it's a very long story. hear this.... (i am gonna write all this in one paragraph coz my 'enter' key is spoilt)... i came home from prayer meeting last night. it was late and my mum came home earlier than i did. so, since i stay in a condominium, we have 2spot parking lot (a parking lot that can fit 2 cars in lar). and our parking lot is not parallel, okie... just imagine this, one car has to go into the parking first, then the other will follow by behind. so my mum came home earlier, she parked inside. so i thought of being a kind daughter, i wanted to help my mum to repark the car... my car inside and hers right after mine (i wanted to do that cause she leaves the hse earlier than me). anyway, i have to reverse her car out from the parking first before i can park my car in. so i parked my car in someone else's parking and left it there to go to my mum's car. before i even got into the car, the owner of that carpark came back. so she wanted me to unpark my car from her parking. so i did. and while reversing the car... i somehow knock onto another car that was stationed in its own parking spot (it's just a few spots away). after i knocked onto that car, i was scared and i wanted to move forward but i forgot to change gear. knock again!! and guess what, i knocked on a Proton Perdana V6 (it's almost equivalent to Holden Commodore). and i was so so terrified. i quickly called my parents. in my heart, i actually wanted to just leave that car alone, running away from it!!!! thank God for conscience. i thought i couldn afford to pay for the damage and i really wanted to run away.... but i was reluctant to do so... so i kinda took some time to calm myself down in the car. and when i got down from the car, the owner of the car came down from the condo. how did he find out abt it... well, remember the carpark that i parked before i knocked on the car.... the owner of that carpark is his neighbour. anyway, both my parents also arrived at the same time... so both parties were negotiating... the owner of the car acted cool and my parents acted cool. i pretended to be cool but deep inside, i was trembling man!! i was just praying and praying and praying like mad. then after that, we got home... and my parents were discussiing abt the insurance issues and stuff... then later i went into my room to pray and pray and prayy like mad. i was very worried that either one of the parties would do something thats non ethical...i don't know how, but i prayed that everything will be settled righteously... and i didn want to destroy any relationships. Satan is here to kill, steal and destroy and i know that satan is trying to use this situation to destroy relationships (my family's r'ship with that car owner) and i really thank God for prompting me to pray for that. and the next morning, i wrote a short prayer on a piece of deep pink paper and stuck it on my ccar door, next to me. and while i was driving to work, i kept prayiing and praying and praying. now i have this phobia of driving. i don't know why, prob because i felt the impact when i knock on that car and i didn want to go through that feeling again.... anyway, this is something that i trully want to give God glory..... i came home and asked m ymum how is the whole situation... mum told me that it was settled with RM350. we just have to pay that car owner rm350.... *phewww* such a relieve.... before this, we estimated that the damage cost will be ~rm 1000 or moreee. *phewww* such a big relieve. i know this is a situation that God wants to use to remind me the importantance of driving carefully and with alertness. now trully i rather be slow than pleasing those drivers behind me. so sorry people if u see a red Iswara driving at 60kmph, that's me. i trully value my life and also ur life... thank You Lord....

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March 2nd, 2004

2nd day

Posted by caesy_sann at 04:23 AM on March 2, 2004.

today is much better. i am fitting in well. my boss is allowing me to be more independent and gave me a lot more jobs. went out to my client's office to pass them some stuff. that was less than 30 minutes. then made some phone calls. see... i told u, it's not too bad now.

welll, my only concern is that in future, when i will be given my jobs, i might emphasize my focus more on work. i am afraid that i willl come home late at night and sleep..... and place my QT as second from work.

*O Lord, constantly remind me of you. and Lord i pray that i will not forget about You. Lord the leastplace tat i want to be is away from You... don't allow me to move even an inch further away from You..... i want to be where You are.**

okie, get back to work. btw, i dun have my own comp... i am using the common comp that's available for all. why don't i have one, coz my immediate boss doesn't have one either. how dare i ask from her.

signing off

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March 1st, 2004

1st day @ work

Posted by caesy_sann at 06:10 AM on March 1, 2004.

sighh.... it's my 1st day at work and i am so bored. so far, i've only done 2 very constructive work.

1. to sort out the sample brochures, print advertisements,etc that were completed by the company into the pigeon hole

2. made phone call to find out abt the promotres off day.

and the rest of the day, i just sit around the studio or go to the toilet. i dunno wat happened to me but i've gone to the toilet 3 times jus today.

i'm gonna rot. and i dun haf my own computer!! this company is real small. plus me, there are only 7 person working. how small.... but they are all very nice colleagues.

well, i guess this boredom is not gpnna last for very long...... til thennnnn.....

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